Wednesday, February 2, 2011



Its been almost more than half a year since I posted anything..

I don't know if I am not being fair to my readers...let alone be fair to myself..

I suddenly am here...thinking of just a year was January 2010.. the merisik..and 3 weeks after that, it all came to an end.

So maybe I am writing today, as a way to express  that I am moving on..or at least trying..and that even though there is much anger, it made me more mature through time.

Apart of me wants to just close this down, as it pains me so much, but after all these months, I still get so many emails of which exudes gratitude and appreciation, especially on matters of the DRESS.. So, its you guys that still reminds me I still can dream.. no matter how little the dream can be.

Its such a joy to see the other lovely ladies went from a bride to a wife and then a mummy.

I need to extend my apologies, for going AWOL. I did not attend some of the weddings.. I buried myself so deep in work just to distract the head and the heart, but last November, I was hospitalized due to exhaustion and an infection. 5 days in the hospital, I realized I had to go back and start loving myself.

So my 2011 resolution, to try and start dating again.

Mind you, at this age, the single guys not so much. lol.

I want to start blogging again.. its therapeutic actually.  but only if you guys will still be here and still support my oh so very shattered heart.

So we'll see how, it feels like to fall in love all over again. Inshallah, Amin.

with much love,



  1. Salam dear...

    I am one of your silent reader. Glad to see you back. We somehow have something in pls keep on writing, hope we both can heal, only time can tell.

  2. hi. i blogwalking tadi and terbaca your post here. one of my sister was like u too but dia lagi sedih sebab sebulan sebelum majlis kahwin pihak lelaki batalkan atas sebab apa pun tak tahu. bila my parent tanya, dorang cuma cakap xda jodoh =( . tapi after 2 years, dia akan kahwin jumaat nih. jangan putus asa, insyaAllah jodoh awak akan tiba bila tiba waktunya =)

  3. assalamualaikum..

    hye dear...i'm one of ur silent a same boat as yours...i'm enggaged on june last year and it end in september..suppose majlisnya this march..n now i'm still in a recovery hurt the most.. must go on rite..

    chayokk babe!!!

  4. Hi Zain,

    I've been reading your blog and when I read your post "Of times", I realized things didn't go well for you. I wanted to say something but I was afraid I was going to just add salt to the pain.

    But now that you're back and things are somewhat left in the past, I hope you'll find strength to move on. I'm sure God has better plans for you. Whenever I think I am in deep distress, I always remember this:

    God says YES and He gives you what you want
    God says NO and He gives you something better
    God says WAIT and He gives you the best in His own time

    I'm sure there are reasons for this. So chin up dear! :))

  5. am one of silent readers. u dont know how much ur posts have been helpful to me. i actually cried when i saw thrs an update frm u. 'breathing'. alhamdulillah. alhamdulillah. do take care, and yes, we are here fr u. ;) much love.

  6. hey dearest, i misssss you. anyhow, here's my humble quote that i always remind myself after a break up, another and another; relationship is like glass-- it's better to leave them shattered than try hurting urself putting it up together. a better person is waiting for u out there, sayang. it's good that u come to ur senses to move on. my utmost support to u. be strong *hugs and many hugs*

  7. Zain, I'm glad that you're back writing dear! I read the entire blog of yours and whenever I blogwalking, I always click here to see if there's a new post. Whatever happens, there must be reasons behind it. Allah swt knows what's the best for you, and I believe there's something greater in life ahead of you. Take care of yourself and health, stay strong!

  8. hi Zain, me too one of ur silent readers..i'm happy u're back.. be strong ya..we are still here..insyaAllah there is someone much better out there for you..

  9. Hi Zain, when i started blogging.. you're one of the 1st blog that i read. be strong dear! insyaAllah... everything happens for a reason.

  10. hi, i'm one of many people that glad you are back... keep writing dear, coz this is one of my fav blog....

  11. hi worries..there will be somebody who really loves u will come to your Allah..He knows what's the best for you..i pray for u..

  12. Hi dear, we're in the same boat. Believe in Faith. God will never take anything away from you without giving you comething so much better. Insyallah...

  13. dear...
    our stories are more likely the same.
    i was an avid blogger for my previous (CANCELLED) dream wedding in 2009..
    but GOD has HIS own way of testing his believers. 2 weeks before the wedding all my dreams shattered as the wedding was off.

    but that was before.. a lot has happened in which turning me to be a wiser person.i am still here, standing strong..
    i still believe on deserved happiness which everyone have their fine share..

    i hope you are too..

    keep blogging and keep strong

  14. OMG Zain!!!!...still remember me???...i br tau u already come back!..mmg sgt risau dan resah atas kehilangan u dlm dunia blog xnak kacau u dgn hntr email...juz wondering mn u pergi...

    anyway...of coz u deserved to be happy!...n we always here for u walaupun kita saling xkenal...

    hope to keep in doing prep again..this time for my sister..and of coz the most vital thing is thinking about the baju!...and ur blog inspired me...

    btw, i already private my blog bcoz some stupid people..if u willing to visit, juz email me ya...n i'll invite u...